Because I want to leave records, because through these records I will learn to know my inner self. I leave these records to future me, my wife, my children, my friends.
Because, I fear the ordinary. I fear being average. I fear mediocrity. Yet, my inner struggles are ordinary. My inner struggles are symptomatic of being a person. May be symptomatic of being a young European approaching is thirties in the year 2017, maybe others share them. Because, I will never escape being ordinary. Because, I will never escape being mediocre (at least at some level). I write publicly, so that through public writing, I may overcome these fears. I may accept my situation. I may feel more comfortable in my own skin and feel less isolated.